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I am not perfect, far from it. And I do not claim to be right or perfect in truth or facts or thoughts/feelings. I am not a part of a certain religion. I am just a child in all reality. But God is fast becoming my Reality. I hope you can know that no matter how imperfect you are, God can still use you if you are seeking to draw closer to Him, always. Take heart, God has a special place for you to be a part of His plan.

 

In the past I have read a life changing book for me called “Dancing in the Arms of God” by Connie Neal. This quote has been an inspiration when dispairing and discouraging thoughts or words seek to overwhelm me. She is commenting on the story of when Mary poured out her costly perfume in reckless abandonment on the feet of Yeshuah (Jesus) and wiped His feet with her hair. ​

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​​“Mary brought her most precious treasure to pour out because of her love for Jesus. Yet when Mary poured out her treasure, she received not admiration, but criticism from those who considered themselves more practical or spiritual than she. We too can pour out that which is a precious fragrance to God: our lives. When we break our lives open and pour out the treasure of our talent, personality, and abilities “(which is given us by God) “we too may be met with criticism. We must come to accept that there will always be those who consider themselves more spiritual than we are, those who point out the flaws in our offering.“ (Including the devil.) “None of that matters. When we live our lives doing what we can do with what we have, making the most of every opportunity, God will come to our defense. He will vindicate us before the eyes of those who misjudge us and will continue to lead us to a better life. He will honor us as He honored Mary. Our part of the dance is to do what we can and continue following His lead…We have been born into slavery, but God came to free us. We may spend some time on earth wondering needlessly, but God promises to lead us to a place where we can know His love intimately, where His secure love gives us the courage to risk intimacy with others, where we can fulfill our purpose, where our dreams can come true.” Connie Neal​​​​

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Welcome :) A little about me...

 

I am just a simple girl with a dream of making a difference. “Lord, let me make a difference for you that is utterly disproportionate to who I am.” David Platt. 

 

For quite some time, I have wanted to share some of the things that I have learned over the last few years. God has been laying it on my heart more and more these last weeks with a sense of urgency that time is running out. It is becoming more and more apparent that some of the things that Christ said would happen in the last days are definitely happening and more to follow I am sure. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I am grateful for the way God puts obstacles in our way to learn from. And I honestly believe it is not just for the benefit of the individual but for others who are going through or will go through similar circumstances. 

 

Thank you for sharing in the journey God has brought me through. Where would I be without the  persistence of His love fighting for me?

 

At one time when I was sitting in a parking lot of Super One desperately fighting against thoughts of suicide I cried out for God. I felt as if no one loved me for who I was, that they were always trying to change me because everything I am was a mistake, that no one would love me and accept me unless I was perfect. 

 

At this time of being really low I felt impressed to sing a praise song to my Heavenly Father, and though that was the farthest thing from my mind, I began to sing the song that came into my head, “Sing Hallelujah to the Lord.” 

 

As soon as I began to sing my broken song of Hallelujahs, I heard Him whisper to me, “You are good enough for me.” I don't believe He was saying to stop trying to fight against my sin, that He was happy with me as I was. Instead I believe He was saying, "I love you just as you are! I see value in you, I see how hard you are trying, and I believe in you where you are, knowing what you will become with My help, even if you or no one else can see it." 

 

It seems He has to bring us to the point where we realize everything good in us is from Him and that there are no substitutes for Him. He alone can cure our loneliness, need for love, acceptance, and sense of self worth.

Holding places of authority and influence won't do it for us. Being in a new and exciting relationship will only last so long if this makes us feel desirable and loved. Living to feel approved by as many people as possible will only steal our joy and lead us to compromise what we know to be right for that pat on the back. Degrading ourselves and our morals in order to feel "safe and secure" financially or materially by being in the arms of someone not following God and His ways will only cause us to go further and further into a pit of brokenness so we only have one option, to cry out for God's help.

Only Father's Embrace will cure the wounds of our past. Let's stop running to everyone else but Him, or from hiding in isolation for fear of pain for this can mean we are hiding from Him as well.  This will only intensify our loneliness, guilt, shame, and craving for His love which the world can never supply. 

 

We can take assurance in the shattering of the false allusion that we fail because we am not good enough or strong enough and that we must try harder. Our assurance of success is when we reach out for His strength and His will to overcome our sins. His grace is enough for us when we fall and His Word will keep us on the staight and narrow.

 

The following pages will contain the various Bible studies, personal devotions and journal thoughts God has laid on my heart. There is also health info, and some world events. 

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